i can't stop crieeeeeeeeeeed!

hh, let me cry as hard as i need too. i hate backstreet but i don't hate him no more! i know you do, but you must promise me that our relationship won't ruin anything.

July, 31th, last time we meet, i touch his hand and i said that i loved him so much, sorry for some difficult time.

"i loved you too, please don't cry, you not wrong baby, i believe you can try to look as strong!" he whispered. it's the first time ever he said that to me.

i wonder how he could be strong he looks so brave, he hugged me, he gave me a short motivational speech, he told me to take care of my self without him, never forget to eat, don't smoke to much, and keep praying for our happiness. i can feel he's sad, but it seems like everything is okay. eventhough, when he arrived at his home, he had to cry his self to bed. ah god! i keep shouting = "I HATE BACKSTREET! MY MOM MUST KNOW THAT HAVING THOSE KINDS OF FEELING ABOUT SOMEONE FOR THAT LONG IS AMAZING!!!!

that's photo has taken after we spent our days together, ARENA (Abdul majid) -> 9Clouds (Menara jamsostek) -> Monas and Gambir -> MCD (Sarinah thamrin) .. 15 hours with him, it's very awesome days dear <3

could we spent our days together again, god ??!