thanks for August, 28th 2008

at the night, i celebrate my birthday at Kemang .

with my Boyfriend, my best friend, and also my sister (with her boyfriend) .

it's so wonderful at all .

i sit beside my Boyfriend, every minutes, every second, hoping he'll gave me some prize, but nothing, he doesn't have anything to me . it's too sad to me dear :(

oh, okay! stop to talking about my Boyfriend . it only just killing my heart ..
i want you to see how could my party can be happiness , haha .
let's check thoose!

surprises party

it's my awesome birthday today! i had turned 17, and i love today even more!

i was so excite about my upcoming birthday :)

when i'm back from school, i'm so excites because i saw many balloons and ribbon at my home. and of course, all about purple, my fave colour :D

5minutes after arrived at home, i hear many people sing a Birthday song, and then i know that my family and my best friend gave me some surprises, and i called it "surprises party"

"thanks very much dear!" i'm whisper and cried ..

okay, i'm so happy for it but they must knew, i really hope ciio (my boyfriend) was joined with us. i'm not find him at there, and my happiness was lost, i'm hoppeless ..

just one i wanna ask:

oh god, why he doesn't came ?

happy but .................

finally today, i was meet him. it's pretty awesome for me and so he too. thanks god for today! but i just wanna ask him one question, are you still love me ? or are you still need ? if you answer "yes", why you not respect today, when we're together ?

i can't stop crieeeeeeeeeeed!

hh, let me cry as hard as i need too. i hate backstreet but i don't hate him no more! i know you do, but you must promise me that our relationship won't ruin anything.

July, 31th, last time we meet, i touch his hand and i said that i loved him so much, sorry for some difficult time.

"i loved you too, please don't cry, you not wrong baby, i believe you can try to look as strong!" he whispered. it's the first time ever he said that to me.

i wonder how he could be strong he looks so brave, he hugged me, he gave me a short motivational speech, he told me to take care of my self without him, never forget to eat, don't smoke to much, and keep praying for our happiness. i can feel he's sad, but it seems like everything is okay. eventhough, when he arrived at his home, he had to cry his self to bed. ah god! i keep shouting = "I HATE BACKSTREET! MY MOM MUST KNOW THAT HAVING THOSE KINDS OF FEELING ABOUT SOMEONE FOR THAT LONG IS AMAZING!!!!

that's photo has taken after we spent our days together, ARENA (Abdul majid) -> 9Clouds (Menara jamsostek) -> Monas and Gambir -> MCD (Sarinah thamrin) .. 15 hours with him, it's very awesome days dear <3

could we spent our days together again, god ??!

after not seeing him for two week

we were be separated, and this time, i miss him terribly, but as long as i think that 'nuts' part would actually come true. my boyfriend was so near from me, so, he's done trying to could meet me. he'll be moving to other country, and me? yes, i'll stayed at Jakarta. college is tough, so is this relationship. but i love him enough to prove that i can't handle this.

keep those clocks ticking, i'm still waiting. love you dear !!!