u're so childish my FRIEND!

if he not good enough, then who am i ? i think they didn't love me anymore so they want to make me feel so angry. SH*T!

(lo bilang kn gue temen lo, trus ngapain lo ceritain semua ke "PACAR TERSAYANG" (hoeeeeekk) lo itu, lo seneng kn sekarang? uda puas? hah??! uda tau cowo lo comelnya minta ampun, laki2 kok mulutnya ky kecrekan anak jalanan. hh, i think you're so childish, my "friend"!)

shit!

"huahhh.. detik2 trakhir ninggalin ibu kotaa! gag tega ninggalin mama , gag tega ninggalin ciio!"

that's a personal message on Yahoo messanger from a girl whom he (my Boyfriend) used to loved!!!!

Hey you! i warning you to leave my Boyfriend now. Ciio is mine not yours . ok I asked you girl, what the fuck do you want??????!

If tomorrow you will went to Bandung, you musn't told to him because he not be respect about you!

YOU (D**A) = SHIT PERSON BITCHHHH!

thanks for August, 28th 2008

at the night, i celebrate my birthday at Kemang .

with my Boyfriend, my best friend, and also my sister (with her boyfriend) .

it's so wonderful at all .

i sit beside my Boyfriend, every minutes, every second, hoping he'll gave me some prize, but nothing, he doesn't have anything to me . it's too sad to me dear :(

oh, okay! stop to talking about my Boyfriend . it only just killing my heart ..
i want you to see how could my party can be happiness , haha .
let's check thoose!

surprises party

it's my awesome birthday today! i had turned 17, and i love today even more!

i was so excite about my upcoming birthday :)

when i'm back from school, i'm so excites because i saw many balloons and ribbon at my home. and of course, all about purple, my fave colour :D

5minutes after arrived at home, i hear many people sing a Birthday song, and then i know that my family and my best friend gave me some surprises, and i called it "surprises party"

"thanks very much dear!" i'm whisper and cried ..

okay, i'm so happy for it but they must knew, i really hope ciio (my boyfriend) was joined with us. i'm not find him at there, and my happiness was lost, i'm hoppeless ..

just one i wanna ask:

oh god, why he doesn't came ?

happy but .................

finally today, i was meet him. it's pretty awesome for me and so he too. thanks god for today! but i just wanna ask him one question, are you still love me ? or are you still need ? if you answer "yes", why you not respect today, when we're together ?

i can't stop crieeeeeeeeeeed!

hh, let me cry as hard as i need too. i hate backstreet but i don't hate him no more! i know you do, but you must promise me that our relationship won't ruin anything.

July, 31th, last time we meet, i touch his hand and i said that i loved him so much, sorry for some difficult time.

"i loved you too, please don't cry, you not wrong baby, i believe you can try to look as strong!" he whispered. it's the first time ever he said that to me.

i wonder how he could be strong he looks so brave, he hugged me, he gave me a short motivational speech, he told me to take care of my self without him, never forget to eat, don't smoke to much, and keep praying for our happiness. i can feel he's sad, but it seems like everything is okay. eventhough, when he arrived at his home, he had to cry his self to bed. ah god! i keep shouting = "I HATE BACKSTREET! MY MOM MUST KNOW THAT HAVING THOSE KINDS OF FEELING ABOUT SOMEONE FOR THAT LONG IS AMAZING!!!!

that's photo has taken after we spent our days together, ARENA (Abdul majid) -> 9Clouds (Menara jamsostek) -> Monas and Gambir -> MCD (Sarinah thamrin) .. 15 hours with him, it's very awesome days dear <3

could we spent our days together again, god ??!

after not seeing him for two week

we were be separated, and this time, i miss him terribly, but as long as i think that 'nuts' part would actually come true. my boyfriend was so near from me, so, he's done trying to could meet me. he'll be moving to other country, and me? yes, i'll stayed at Jakarta. college is tough, so is this relationship. but i love him enough to prove that i can't handle this.

keep those clocks ticking, i'm still waiting. love you dear !!!

are we broken ??????!

mungkin ini foto terakhir gue sm dia , kita berdua sepakat buat backstreet .

ini semua gara" keluarga gue g setuju sama hub.gue sama dia .. tapi d satu sisi gue mikir ini mungkin uda jalan nya dari tuhan , but on the other hands backstreet itu susah banget buat gue ..

gada cara lain , yaa apadaya gue harus bisa . be the wrong person if it's too hard !!!!

pasti bakal susah banget ketemu , soalnya yang keluarga gue tau kita tuh uda putus , dan mereka seneng banget dengernya . uuuuh , bahagia d atas penderitaan gue .

ini bener" hal tersulit dalam hidup gue , ga pernah ngebayangin bakaln gini , tapi biar gimana pun gue ttp bersyukur karna g semua orang punya kesampatan buat ngerasa ini , buat mmperjuangin ini semua ..

semenjak 19 July 2008, gue bilang sama cowo gue "aku ga yakin kl kita bisa bertahan backstreet ky gini , bukan aku pesimis ya , tapi kemungkinan terbesarnya itu pasti kamu bakal jenuh . aku uda buat keputusan kok , mulai detik ini kl kamu punya pacar lagi , aku ikhlas . aku gapapa , tapi satu yang harus kamu tau , aku ada buat kamu karna sampe kapanpun , aku sayang sama kamu . you're my everything zico :)"

eh cowo gue malah marah gue bilang gitu . eeeeem , yaa liat aja lah kedepannya gimana , cuma tuhan yang tau . kl pun sampe bener" kejadian , dunia akhirat , gue ikhlas !!!!! :)

yes, he's back!

horaaaaaaay!

myBoyfriend were back to Jakarta .

he's come to my home at Saturday night .

i'm so happiness :)

itu foto candid dia pas baru dateng ,

hihi , saking kangennya , baru dateng aja

uda gue foto2in , yekaaaaaan .

HAHAHA :D

dia keruma gue jam 16.52 ,

nganterin oleh" from my mother in law , ahaha masi calon mertua sih :D

ngobrol" gitu , terus cerita" tentang liburannya ,

abis itu foto" deh, uhhhhhh, seneng bangeeeeeeeetts!

ahhh, LOVE :)

sekitar dua jam dia druma gue ,

jam 6 kurang 10 dia pulang keruma deh .

emm , sebentar banget . tapi uda cukup seneng

koo bisa liat dia dari deket lagi , ehehehe ..

"i miss you like crazy baby .."

uhh , you're my top liar !

Ahhhhh , zico (myBoyfriend) leave me for 3 days !
he went to Jogja - Solo with his parents , with Om Ellie an Tante Upi . they stop in Klaten station , but 1hour latter they must went to Solo and stayed at Solo anyway.
he promised me to always give me a report about his condition but ........ ohmygod , he lied !
okay , i'm fine cause i've know his bad habbits , forgot to give me some report : (

okay fine! i can see you don't mind if we're far apart .

holidayssssssssss ..

gada kerjaan liburan gue ke Dinosaurus Alive aja d parkir tenggara Senayan , wuihhh kirain bagus gitu gataunya biasa banget , Dino nya dari karet gitu pendek2 , mana isinya bocah semua , nyitnyit ..

feel so bored dude! uda gitu pas keluar , dimuka gue ada 3 bentol gede bangeeeeeeeeeeets jijay ii , sial banget kan , bukan nya hvn fun malah bikin sial .. hwanjeeeeeeeeeeng*

stay at home, it will be better ..

ahhh , bt banget liburan diruma doang , ketemu pacar dilarang , apapa dilarang . monyeeeeeeeeeeeeeets!
kaka gue tiap hari hang-out sama pacar nya mulu , iri gue ah nyitnyit nih nyokab .
ohmygod , kangen Zico uuuhh i can't wait to meet you Sayaaaaang : )
i'm missing you,
the things we used to do
the place we loved to go
the time the seemed forever
the days when we're together :)
your sweet comforting smile,
the way you laugh and sigh
you warm look upon my face
your feature i can't erase
the love you gave me
the feeling of being free
the memories we shared
the thought of being care
the sounds of your voice
the promise we would never part
but there's nothing i can do
it's just that i'm missing you ..

hey mom! what do you want (?)

i think she doesn't love me but she really loves my sister!
Zico haqiqi , dia itu cowo gue , kita baru pacaran sekitar 4 bulan .
waktu itu nyokab gue nanya "dek, siapa pacar kamu sekarang ? anak mana?"
gue seneng banget dong ditanyan gitu , nah gue jawab "ada mah , namanya Zico , anaknya seumuran sama aku .."
nah uda ngobrol2 gitu , nyokab minta gue ngenalin dia sama cowo gue .
akhirnya pas tanggal 8 Juni 2008 , pas gue sakit , cowo gue keruma , he give me a lot of red rose flowers .
dan komentar nyokab ...................... "jauhin dia!"
i'm so angry , eventhough she's my mom but she hurted me .
akhirnya sampe sekarang gue tetep stuborn buat jalanin ini semua sama cowo gue , wlw kadang g tega ngeliat dia d jutekkin , d ceramahin sama nyokab gue .
nyokab g suka karna profesi cowo gue , DJ .
padahal , so what mom ?
gue ga ngerti apa maunya nyokab , tapi gue yakin cowo gue itu g seburuk yang nyokab bayangin .
gue gatau kenapa gue ngerasa Zico tuh beda banget , satu2nya cowo yang ngebuat gue ngerasa beruntung , tapi ini bukan karna gue lagi cinta buta yaa , tapi sueeeeer! i've never felt like that before ..